HIStory…HERstory…YOURstory…

What I’ve Learned…

Now that I’ve reached Santiago aka the finish line… 

I wasn’t satisfied with the destination.  It felt hollow! Maybe it was because the last 116km (72 miles)  was so commercial.  It didn’t feel intimate anymore.  The last leg felt as if I was finishing, not because I wanted too, but more so, because this is just what you do.

At that moment of reflection, I realized it, the Camino de Santiago is not about reaching the destination.  It’s about the people, and the trails you face with your body and in your mind.

When I think about this journey a hook from one of my favorite groups comes to mind.  It’s by Mayday! and it goes…

“I’m treading water int he deep end…I’m tryin’ to kill off all my demons, embrace my flaws and all my defects, and my shoirtcuts and dead ends.”

This journey is about being true to yourself.  During the Camino you are left with two options: (1). change yourself or your environment and (2). Accept what’s going on or do something about it.

Honestly, I like, if not love life that way.  It simplifies! Do it or don’t, but never regret the decision.

After coming to this conclusion, the Camino felt whole again to me.  The Way helped me clear previous doubts.  Doubts about if I did everything I could for my mother.  The answer is…yes.  I did everything in my power to play my role in that scenario.  My role was to be her loving son and her biggest supporter.  I did exactly that.  Who knows, maybe I’ll be nominated for an Oscar for the category “Best Supporting Role”.

I’m finally at peace with my workings I did for my mother. 

I’m still walking and working to help the people…